Today is Ash Wednesday. The beginning of Lent. The day Jesus left for the desert where he stayed for 40 days and 40 nights to fast and pray before his death. So in honor of his commitment and sacrifice, some give things up as a sacrifice during the days before Easter. Ash Wednesday and the Fridays of Lent are all meatless days also because, again, it is a sacrifice. So when one sacrifices, one must remember to think of Jesus in the desert and his purpose there.
And this year, right out of the gate, I failed.
It wasn't like I thought, "screw Lent, I'm eating chicken!" It was more like an epiphany around 2:00. "Oh crap! I'm not supposed to eat meat today." That was right after enjoying the chicken salad I had for lunch. Whoops! So, as of 2:00 tomorrow, I'll be off the hook.
That's another thing about Lent. Sure, I can sneak a chicken salad in at lunch time on Ash Wednesday; no one held me accountable. Katie didn't care if I had roast beef or chicken or pork. No one minds what you do, it's just the Big Guy who always seems to be checking over my shoulder. He has a way of knowing those little cheats.
I am giving up pop this year. This is a sacrifice like one I haven't had in awhile. I strive big during Lent. One year it was potatoes, another red meat. Last year it was money to charity. But pop, well that's a whole new realm of commitment. Part of my determination comes from the fact that I am an addict and it's time to break the bad habit. Part of my commitment comes from the denial of faith from my husband. Little does he know that besides today, I've never cheated, not once. I should've bet him.
So here we are. Day 1 of a 40+ day journey on the path to cleansing myself from aspartame and caramel color (no one said anything specifically about caffeine here people). I have a headache. I am without my usual jolt of life from the caffeine that is a staple in my bloodstream. I am grouchy and I want a steak. But, a sacrifice it is. No one said anything about it being easy. And it shouldn't be. Because really, the only one you have to prove a point to is paying attention and I sure don't want to let Him down.